So I'm demisexual, and tend to not feel attraction toward anyone I'm not friends with first. I knew my now-boyfriend peripherally a few years ago, but didn't really "MEET" him until August of 2018, which is the first column. From there, you can see our friendship month by month. Our second month, he showed up for me in a powerful way on a super rough night -- that's the sweet moment. Other ones include coming over to sing for me when I had passed out and was weak in bed all day, coming over to sit with me when my mom died, and going to my mom's funeral with me. By February he was becoming one of my closest friends. In March I was like DANG HE'S CUTE, and by April I realized I was developing a crush on him. In August and again in November of 2019, he said some flirtatious things to me even though he'd told me he wasn't available for a relationship, and we had conversations clarifying boundaries to help me feel less confused. Still, by December, there was an undercurrent of "ouch" in my heart to be falling for someone who I knew I couldn't date. In February, he let me know he was navigating relationship boundaries in his other relationship to explore the possibility of dating me, and there were WEEKS of conversations. On February 24, he asked me to date him. And March? Glorious. Looking forward to what comes next. <3
Duration: 120+ minutes
